what is fair?what is really fair within superior and staff?what is the measure of fair?how to be consistent in a team?what is team work?what is caring? what is the vision?what is the mission? what to be?and what is not to be?till now not understook!listen use eye?note use ear?what kind of human being?away from here,lots of way to go!not because lose,just because of no heart to stay......i learned....in this world not only black,white.already cover with grey!!!!!do accept!to setttled it!to released!atleased i know i'm not alone!

是不是我跟不上时代？还是人心本是如此！一直守候。等待。已成空。想到自己無知，可悲！是自信害了我嗎？还是人跟本不必有实力，只要懂得在适当的時间做出表現，就可以往上爬。哪么跟随瞎了眼而且不分黑白是非的上司会有前程可言。

just now hv a soft talk wit my collegue.she told wat our marketing asking her yesterday!sometime as a human being,if u know that yrself already did something wrong and know it an misconduct on self responsible!i understand that i am going to responsible to what the management result ,also satisfied the punishment to me.i wont blame to anything,to whom or to searching a good good excuse to cover my own.i realise that when you are doing thing wrong,you must take the responsibility and facing its.not run away from it!reason and why i done this already answered,believe or not?up to them!

家中的小甜心回奶奶那里了、算是给大人们放一个短假。少了她的存在，少了很多的吵叫声！今天是她回大港的第三天，巳经开始想念她了！看她由出世的那一刻起，到今年的五月巳经是二周年了！往往所说的都是她的话题，好的、坏的、哭的、笑的，带耒了一家人的乐趣！！小念圻，玩过了记得回婆婆家咯！

好久没有上来了！忙完了手头上的工紧接著学最新的系统管理，虽然觉得辛苦但是开心自己有机会在事业上学习更多的新事物！！今天向上司说了自巳的决定，心情终於轻松了！知道前路难走，不想再执著自己的一套。子平说如果有狗向你乱吠，你要回吠那狗儿吗？人往往有自己的一套，可是每样都行得通！不要明知山有虎，却偏向虎山行！苦的是自己。人生短短几十年，最重要留古千年、也不要遣臭万年！

wat a good day!3 fatty cuties ladies went to auty city for dinner!we eat a lts at Seoul Garden.before that already went Old Town eat laksa.night happy hour at Black Jackle.quite nice a relax place.having western food,special drinks,cakes.......unfortunately forget to take some foto.nevermind still got next trip...

finally all settled!jane wedding end!before that worry about money,luckyly was can be cover!my body seen like knowing that i'll be free,so my old fren came to visit me{sick}.the hold body feel pain,tired.maybe getting old and can't be accept too much tension and worry!i wanna to know whether she was happy to live with mother in law or not?she was too young to become a mum!when she told me that she is decide to marry,my heart so hurt!i feel scared,i scared my 4 sweeties will leave me!scare to be alone!but i understand that this is LIFE!god be arrange for it.just accept.i pray and hope my children future be happy and all the best always around them!GOD,do u get what i wish to my children?if yes,please wish them live happiness in their hold life.

as long as celebrated CNY ,i feel this year was different from last few years!1st & 2nd days hold family meet &travel to visits cousin together.when time go by,my children all grown up and thinking more to care each others.do hope can keep this situation till i die!yesterday early i was scolded by someone.i was live this man almost 25years.unfortunately untill now i don't know what really he want and need from me?do him what is responsibility as a father and a husband?he always blend that was my fault make him so hard to live 'senang-senang!i've do think if i 'm not live in world do him feel better?if yes,i'll did as he wish!

year end sales make me sooooo busy till long time update blog.feeling bad!the more u does the much u got scold!i just keep on my responsible to finish what should do!communication between each others is very hard to make others understand what really happening!no need to explaint if i did nothing wrong!but at lease got supporting from my team member!jan'11 target ad hit,hahaha........next month commision will be more,hihihi....30th jan 11 sales toooooo good!25k we make it!!!!!!but me still having bad mood,if can i don't want to facing somebody.i hate others keep counselling in front of me......BENCI!

just now my sweetie joey told me that her friend know her mum had a blog.she said "my mum is so hao lien".actually my write somethings that i cant and i dont know how to share with my friend!when i feel upset,i want to voice out by write on my blog.is like my dairy.after i throw away my tension in the blog,i feel better.another daughter be marry soon.dont know how to explaint my feelling.just like so worry because she is too young to be a mother.i want my children do enjoy their life,be happy always.i'm scared they're going to be like their mum,hold life kmayeep worry ,worry and worry!may god always be blessing my children.thanks god!

no word to explain what already happenedwithin this few day!i know i have to control my EQ,never and ever so easy to be angry.must remain an good attitude to do my own responsibility.to do what must do!to keep my mouth SHUT UP.but actually i need someone can help me and told me what the way i can released all my GERAM out of my heart!dont know how long can i stay on this situation?dont want just keep tension over and over and always too over make me down!my arm feel more pain today.if one my body JAM because this painful,i rather die dont want make trouble to others!

16th jan 2011 is a very BAD BAD BAD day!what kind of stupid job that i'm doing?will be crazy soon if i still keep working in this area!what kind of those 'TALK MANAGEMENT' between operation team?yes i know,T.M. is always by talk talk and talk the hold day long to get high salary.people that work using their both hand work how hard also NO USE!i hate,i hate,i hate and i hate very much to myself!bodoh bodoh bodoh and bodoh till i die,,,,,,,,,,

if
1-A 2-B 3-C 4-D 5-E 6-F 7-G 8-H 9-I 10-J 11-K 12-L 13-M 14-N 15-O 16-P 17-Q 18-R 19-S 20-T 21-U 22-V 23-W 24-X 25-Y 26-Z
HARD WORK
H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11=98%
KNOWLEDGE
K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5=96%
LOVE
L+O+V+E
12+15+22+5=54%
LUCK
L+U+C+K
12+21+3+11=47%
LEADERSHIP
L+E+A+D+E+R+S+H+I+P
12+5+1+4+5+18+119+9+16=89%
ATTITUDE
A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5=100%

REMAIN AN GOOD ATTITUDE,YOUR LIFE WILL BE SUCCESS!

what a boring day!no mood to work hard!in the afternoon got good new from my friend,maybe can go to interview after CNY......one week five days work,rest every PH,but wiltol be more tired because have to traller outstation always!but i know that i can do it,yes!i dont know actually happened to the old man!never argued this two week!i dont know what is his problem and also dont want to know!after all many many many things happened since 1994,i just keep forgive,forgive and forgive to what did he done!till now also still because of my children i make a choice-keep silence,not talk too much.take care my children untill they can care for their own!i always asked to my own,did i done wrong?he just to fight for what he think is RIGHT!wont care about others!never listen to someone advice!i'm the one that always must facing to every that came to looking for him.does anyone can care about me?i dont think so! may god bless me!

start from last year dec'2010 just only keep busy busy bust till now not yet finish!unluckly today got lots of problem cant settled.this afternoon company FA came to visit.at the same moment,me and another two staffs busy for separatting DO and docket at the cashier counter.suddenlly a lady came close to and asking who's the PIC?i ready to SERVED her.firstly she start to check at the cashier float and sales money.i showed her the voidding receipt and also reported to her the reason why i void bill.then i assist her to storeroom.she check the save and staff attendance,she asking the log book.i told what i brief this morning,and she went to asked a staff what i brief?around 30min FA after all checking she left.i call to informed zack what happened !who know FA already contact to marketing.i know that and i also understand i dont think that i can keep work at this company ant longer!start from last 2months i already make an decision will resign after chiness new year.its was so hard to make this final result.{bu sir de}all i work so hard to maintain a shop operation daily work with few support from other!

so geram to someone as a superior!how come they can always changed their R&R?actually what's they need?monday said 'A',tuesday said 'A+',wednesday 'Z'!!!!!if the company really NEED 18yrs teenager,just face to face!dont ever did the 'STUPID' thing.if they cant settled so many counter they handled,pls let those 'BUSY'counter close lo!dont ever because ONE BODOH outlet make others 'BO ENG'.......GO TO HELL!!!!!!

just back from cousin wedding dinner!feel upset n tired n tired!so hard for me facing all the cousin n relative.always no word n no topic to talk.like an {orang bodoh}with the so [ket]smilling,for my own also cannot go!tomolo's the last day of year end school holiday.all students will be back to school.n all the parents have to spend a lots for school opening!can i make it?school opening?chiness new year?may god bless me!