finally all settled!jane wedding end!before that worry about money,luckyly was can be cover!my body seen like knowing that i'll be free,so my old fren came to visit me{sick}.the hold body feel pain,tired.maybe getting old and can't be accept too much tension and worry!i wanna to know whether she was happy to live with mother in law or not?she was too young to become a mum!when she told me that she is decide to marry,my heart so hurt!i feel scared,i scared my 4 sweeties will leave me!scare to be alone!but i understand that this is LIFE!god be arrange for it.just accept.i pray and hope my children future be happy and all the best always around them!GOD,do u get what i wish to my children?if yes,please wish them live happiness in their hold life.

as long as celebrated CNY ,i feel this year was different from last few years!1st & 2nd days hold family meet &travel to visits cousin together.when time go by,my children all grown up and thinking more to care each others.do hope can keep this situation till i die!yesterday early i was scolded by someone.i was live this man almost 25years.unfortunately untill now i don't know what really he want and need from me?do him what is responsibility as a father and a husband?he always blend that was my fault make him so hard to live 'senang-senang!i've do think if i 'm not live in world do him feel better?if yes,i'll did as he wish!